True You

For longer than I would like to say, but am obviously admitting, I tried desperately hard to find my place in this world. It took me many years of making an abundant number of mistakes to finally come back home to myself and stop being who “they” told me to be. I had to go within to realize I have always had my own place in this world, and that I am who I always have been meant to be. I have always seen, heard, and felt life in general in such an unconventional manner; knowing there was more to this world than what is placed right in front of our eyes. Because of these facts and how I acted on them, I was treated as an outsider even in my own groups of friends. There are so many others that have felt this way. Fitting in was not something people like me were good at nor what we wanted but felt like something we were supposed to do. Being a part of certain social groups not meant for me was a huge issue. It was a lesson taught to me as a requirement to live happily, and I don’t know about you, but the more I tried to do this, the worse things became. As a matter of fact, I ended up living my life for others, becoming someone else entirely, for too damned long. This was such a gross use of who I am, but it came with a certain wisdom I wouldn’t have gained otherwise. The opinions and judgments of others used to have me feeling unwanted, as if I were a nuisance or an inconvenience. I know I’m not alone in this either. So, like many, I developed a plethora of masks to fit within several different so-called societal norms. In doing so, I became someone unrecognizable, and every time I looked in the mirror, I hated the person staring back at me because she wasn’t me. The truth is, there is no such thing as a societal norm. And It used to drive me crazy that so many had to mold themselves into altered or masked versions just to be included in groups of individual’s brand of normal, and these were groups of people who didn’t care an ounce about them in the first place. If you are such a soul, and you’re still doing this just to be a part of something, anything no matter the cost, please stop now. If you’re being a certain way or have become someone untrue to you because you fear never meeting your tribe, those people that match your brand of awesome, don’t. I know it can seem terrifying to branch out, throwing yourself into different groups of people to find somewhere you truly belong, but your place is out there and within you. Remember that you are here to be the truest version of you so that you may share your extraordinary self with all you come across throughout your lives. As I’m meeting more and more people from all around, I am seeing their unique brands of beauty they possess within them to bless this world with. This fact is what inspired me to write this, so I can tell others there is no need to be anyone other than everything that makes you, you, and just maybe help you see and know this fact. If you are having trouble seeing your true self; you might want to take a beat, breathe, and remember who you started out to be before “they” told you who you should be.

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